Today was a pretty tough day. It’s been exactly 8 months since Raegan passed so she was on my mind quite a bit. I think about her all the time but I always seem to think of her more on the 5th of each month.
Family friends of my family’s hosted a BBQ today and I went to it, along with my sisters, brothers-in-law, parents, nieces and nephews. I felt a little distracted during the event but I had fun. This family always holds awesome parties with lots of fabulous food and laughter. We’ve been doing holidays and occasions with them for over 20 years so they’re a big part of my family’s traditions.
There were many things throughout the afternoon that made me laugh. I loved the kisses I got from my 2 year old nephew. He puckers up and leans in to plant the biggest smooches on me…it’s precious! I had a blast splashing cold water on my 3 year old niece (I promise that it was done in a light-hearted manner…she loved it and giggled each time! ). Her little sense of humor is adorable.
As the BBQ came to an end, I said my goodbyes and walked to my car. As I was driving out of their suburban neighborhood, I thought about the day and how I felt. I thought about my friends and family. I thought about Skylie. Of course, I thought about Raegan. I pulled onto the main road just as I caught a glimpse of the beautiful setting sun.
I couldn’t stop looking at the fiery ball in the sky. It was gorgeous. Since I always called Raegan my Rae of Sunshine (and Skylie is now my Sky of Sunshine), whenever I see a particularly breathtaking sunset, I know Raegan is shining down on me.
The sunset peaking through the trees was very symbolic of today. Not only did it bring me comfort but it also reminded me that it is very much like joy. Sometimes you just catch a peak and that’s all you need to see to know that it’s there.